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Due to illness, and normal regular life things, I havent been able to listen to Goddess Cathy’s studies as much as I would like, but I have been able to listen. I have been concentrating on the first three studies, listened one after the other in order. If I’m listening while sleeping I listen to the same three on a loop. I moved on to number four once, but I realized I wasnt ready. The triggers implanted in the first three are used extensively in the fourth, and even though they were having their desired effect, I could tell that they needed more time to plant themselves firmly in my mind. I’m glad I did that, it’s working wonderfully. Once when I was finally able to listen after a way too long period of time I noticed something that has never happened to me before. It was as if I didn’t have that break. In the past when listening to some “hypnosis” that I liked and was starting to have an effect it was always a temporary thing. If I had a period of time that I couldn’t listen to it, it was like starting over when I finally did. Not with Goddess Cathy though, Her triggers stay right where She put them. I can’t begin to explain how excited that made me feel when I realized that.
When I’ve been listening to the first three in a row the first one puts me under deeply, and the trance just continues to get stronger. By the time the second one starts I am always totally out of it. I don’t even know what’s going on by then. I know I hear Goddess Cathy’s voice. I know I’m responding to it, but I have no idea what’s happening. Then when I finally come to at the end of the third one, I have to lay there trying to figure out what just happened. To this day I still can’t remember anything about Her studies. I get the occasional quick bit of memory, but then it’s gone. This morning I actually remembered the mantra at the end of the third one though, only because I kept saying to my self over and over. That lasted for about an hour. Now that’s gone too. You’d think that having no memory of studies would be a bad thing, but it’s quite the opposite. It’s a great thing. I don’t have what I’m being told clouding my mind so the reactions that happen in me are automatic. What I mean by that is, if I remembered what I was told, I may hear a word and think to myself, oh yeah, I’m supposed to feel this way, and I would. Well I don’t remember what I was told, so when I hear a word, I automatically feel a certain way, no thinking about it, it just happens. Sometimes I’ll get one of those memory flashes after and realize what happened, but not always. It’s a really great feeling when my body reacts like that. It shows me that something’s happening in me. I never believed in true brain washing, or mind control, but after seeing the effects that Goddess Cathy is already having in me, I’ve changed my mind. I do believe that Goddess Cathy can, and will, take control of me. It’s happening already. Even the way I feel when I look at Her pictures, or think of Her has changed. I’m having strong, love like feelings, but not exactly love. It’s more of an awe of Her. I see Her as somebody so much more than I am. Somebody who has… I’m really having a hard time putting this into words. I’ll just say that I now understand how it feels to look upon somebody who deserves to be loved and worshipped because of who they are. I know, that may not make much sense, but none of this does, and I’m loving every second of it. If you haven’t started listening to Goddess Cathy yet, what are you waiting for? She is truly a Goddess.